If I Died Today...

And if I didn't make it

into this mainstream industry

of music, I can honestly say that I was more than proud to live out my dream: record my music and sing in front of a live stage with everyone feeding me nothing but love and support. I appreciate everyone's support so far. I love and cherish you all no matter what. 

Tonyizdead X Christian Manzo (Part One)

Last night I had the pleasure of doing an impromptu set with Christian Manzo (before going out to dinner lol). I Hope you enjoy these stills and a Part 2 to these will be posted soon.

Come On Let's Pray

Come on let's pray: Dear Lord...
Please forgive us for all the sins we have brought upon us
And look down upon us with forgiveness for all the sins we will have in the future
I know you understand that niggas ain't perfect, but we try, Lord
We try to keep our heads up in bad times
This is a bad time; show us the way
And if you can't show us the way
Then forgive us for being lost

It Ain't Over 'Til I Say It's Over

Despite the leader of my music group telling me to cut ties with my previous endeavors of people that I used to work with...No matter what I'm still yelling out, and continuing my campaign in syaing FUCK the Long Beach Music Council for doing me dirty. You DO NOT yell in my face for me to do what you say.I am an artist, not a slave. And I will continue to work with and for artists with freedom of choice.

The Presentation: Hear Me Out Though

Six long years...it's been six years since I haven't been recording my music. I had no idea when I'd be in a full functioning studio making music again. To be honest, I never thought it would happen in my wildest dreams ever again. But it feels good to say that I'm coming with music for you. I shall forever give thanks to Sound Army, Orlando, and Chuy (even though you're gone..you're still here with us) for the support and helping me grow as an artist. You guys don't know how much I appreciate you working with me for these past several years. To the people who are into my music and have seen me perform: I thank you with all of my heart. For those who recognized Tigerclaw, I thank you all as well for all the peace, love ad support. Though our time was cut short, it was for the better on both ends from the two of us. Plastic Saxophone is Chuy's solo project that he's working on...he has some new and also great stuff coming your way.  But allow me to reintroduce myself: I'm Tonyizdead. Now I may know what you're thinking..."is he suicidal?" or "is he infatuated with death or the topic of it at hand?" Absolutely not. However I should point out that I'm  Dead Inside The Music. Meaning this is nothing more than an addiction for me. I can't shy away from it, nor ignore it. It'll be consistent with me for the rest of my life. Dead Inside The Music just so happens to be the name of my debut mixtape. Sure, throw your two cents on how pathetic an unknown artist now a days can only rely on a mixtape, but it's the only thing that's left for me to do. I have to do this to share to you that I'm genuine and warm, and that it's a great option to leave a staple on the music scene in general. Last year I was "managed" by the Long Beach Music Council...and they would've been mad If I were to release this kind of material. To hell with them, I will continue to fight for what I believe in with no one to answer to. The moral to my story is also fight for what you believe in, even if it means walking away. Any opportunity is good opportunity If I so say so myself. I will continue to focus on the goal and vision for Sound Army no matter what. The majority of tracks on this mixtape are produced by myself, and lyrics are made of on the spot from myself. I just want to spread my gift with you all and send nothing but positive vibes. The following track is a song I recorded not too long ago and it is produced by myself. The song is called "Ride". I hope you enjoy it, there will be more music coming soon. Once again my name is Tonyizdead, and I sing for my sanity.

I miss my grandmother so much...she was the only person to have loved me for whatever flaw, goal, and aspirations I had during the time she was alive. She showed me unconditional love for every time I came to her. Words can't describe how much I think of her every single day. At work I drive by the hospital she was in when she was diagnosed with cancer and it hurts to drive by it every single day. I feel as if I'm a lonewolf every single day when I interact with others who have loved me. I give it my all and I make mistakes as a human being. I grow from it every single day and I become a happy person. I don't want to be put in this box as a negative and angry person because that's not who I am. I'm actually a soft spoken, warm and genuine person in the inside who wants to succeed in life with everything that comes my way. In the past 12 months I've had people come into my life and throw dirt on my name...those people are no longer here. Summer is here and I'm going to feel alive, I'm going to love, connect, and feel as if my grandmother is on this earth with me. No anger and animosity will be tolerated from me. I don't like being like this...and I don't like to feel as if people see me as this angry and mad person. I miss my grandmother very much...the one person I can lean on for all of my troubles and uplift my spirits. I'm not who you think I am, I am a good person.

Antonio (Poem)

Take care of the kids were your last words to mom
Making sure your comfort with us could never go wrong
I had thought you were secure enough to go head on with no fear
Making sure everything was clear
But the big man upstairs said that you could no longer be here.
That brought me with bawling tears
Father it's been 20 years since you've been gone
But somehow someway I make sure there is a bond
Between the both of us I knew you were good man
I understand that your love is still grand
I was only six and I didn't really get your demise
But with your spirit with us to this very day, your name stays alive.
As your son there is nothing but unconditional love for you.
As I lay my eyes smiling above for you.
Your son, daughter, brothers, sisters, mother, and everyone in your family and circle of friends miss you deeply.
With my thoughts and prayers somehow someway I know you can read me.
Today we will not cry, no time to be sad
We celebrate you, to this very day you are still the best father that I ever had.

I love you so much dad, rest in paradise.